“When he offers his lips, go for his throat.”
I’m sitting at the DMV (yes I’m blogging at the DMV) to get my license renewed. I have my old license in hand with a young photo of me with a thinner face and my natural hair color. I remember that day pretty well. I was at the DMV with my ex and I definitely had to force my smile for the picture. You can see how fake it is. I was in the worst relationship and horrible unhappy. My self-esteem was ripped down and I was struggling with an eating disorder. Now I am not fully there yet. I still struggle with anxiety every day and I still look in the mirror sometimes and wish my stomach was smaller. But I eat what I want without guilt. My body is stronger than it’s ever been. I’ve surrounded myself with people who are genuine and treat me the way I deserve to be treated. I know what love is supposed to really feel like. I am independent and have learned how to speak my mind and be myself without caring about the opinions of others. It’s amazing what can change in 5 years. The future of course is daunting but at least I hope to grow even more in the next 5 years.