Good night moon πŸŒ‘πŸŒ’πŸŒ“πŸŒ”πŸŒ•πŸŒ–πŸŒ—πŸŒ˜πŸŒ‘

Good night moon πŸŒ‘πŸŒ’πŸŒ“πŸŒ”πŸŒ•πŸŒ–πŸŒ—πŸŒ˜πŸŒ‘

Two selfies in one day?!  Only because my hair still looks hella straight after the gym.

Two selfies in one day?! Only because my hair still looks hella straight after the gym.

This insignificance is overwhelming me.
It’s overwhelming me.
You promised me there was a point to this all.
And you told me I had to just sit tight, it’ll be all right.
Just sit tight, it’ll be all right.

Came home to this beauty in the mail from @mindsaymohan.  I love it!!!

Came home to this beauty in the mail from @mindsaymohan. I love it!!!

5 years

I’m sitting at the DMV (yes I’m blogging at the DMV) to get my license renewed. I have my old license in hand with a young photo of me with a thinner face and my natural hair color. I remember that day pretty well. I was at the DMV with my ex and I definitely had to force my smile for the picture. You can see how fake it is. I was in the worst relationship and horrible unhappy. My self-esteem was ripped down and I was struggling with an eating disorder. Now I am not fully there yet. I still struggle with anxiety every day and I still look in the mirror sometimes and wish my stomach was smaller. But I eat what I want without guilt. My body is stronger than it’s ever been. I’ve surrounded myself with people who are genuine and treat me the way I deserve to be treated. I know what love is supposed to really feel like. I am independent and have learned how to speak my mind and be myself without caring about the opinions of others. It’s amazing what can change in 5 years. The future of course is daunting but at least I hope to grow even more in the next 5 years.

Instagramming my birthday Starbuck’s like the basic bitch I am.

Instagramming my birthday Starbuck’s like the basic bitch I am.

I’m closer to 30 than 20 today so I busted out the wrinkle eye cream.

I’m closer to 30 than 20 today so I busted out the wrinkle eye cream.